i thought your phone crashed and that you were busy and scared for Wednesday's operation i was going to visit you and bring a kitkat cause that's our joke its supposed to make everything better you don't deserve it now
i thought you missed me
i thought we were gonna go to India - i had already started planning it i thought we were gonna watch wall-e act as if we were Ev-e + Wall-e i thought we would become the two grown up kids always making up on jokes about pouting i thought we were gonna go to elodie's party together and end up together every day going to the gym , us two .
i thought you liked me
i thought she was old story
i thought i was capable of proving to you that your not alone
because i wouldve been there for you
no matter what
i thought id let myself fall once more because you were worth it you said you were you said you'd always be there
you said you didn't love her anymore you said you could never cheat on someone you wanted me to trust you i thought we would go every thursday to the beach and chill out the week ends at mine in albion
but was that your plans with her too?
its been 3 years that i haven't chased a guy and when i finally decide that i should try , he turns out to be a total ass
i guess you lied when you said all you were doing was talking to me was she on your cock meanwhile ?
we could have bought your gym things together , go shopping , finally have that dinner you won betting on a coin we would have smoked together and watch the stars and make out until you'd have to leave id go to your work out and you'd say "that's my girl" to your friends there wed feel the sun together and dance until we drop dead wed get the highest you ever were and fuck and talk and laught about anything and id say that i loved you and youd say the same throught just a single kiss wed talk to each other with glances and everyone would say that we're cute my dad already liked you
i was telling my friends that they were wrong and that you're a good guy
we'd have the most ridiculous fights and the only real excuses would be that we missed each other
wed figure out what we want to achieve in life people would talk about us like we're a pair
i would've loved you like crazy
you fucking cunt
i wanted you to me my number one i guess you never wanted me
making this list is exhausting how could you do this to me ?
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around...
You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again... You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do... You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible...
You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” ― Bob Marley