Hi. We've recently spent a decent amount of time together. I know it's only been dinner conversations, sitting silently next to one another in a movie theater or grabbing drinks with our friends (only to get caught up in our own conversation), but it's been some of the most fun I've had with another person in a very long time.
For that, I thank you.
You don't know this about me yet, but I'm not too great at the whole relationship thing; it scares me. The reason I have yet to make a move of any real consequence is because, well, I'm not really sure what to do.
I realize that I'm not in college any longer, nor am I just trying to get you into bed. So, drunkenly spurring a makeout session, that will hopefully turn into more with simple “moves,” is out of the question.
I already like you too much for that.
Unfortunately, that's about all I know. I've spent the past four years of college going through that exact charade. But you... We are friends and I take pleasure in your company.
So much so that if you turned down an advance from me with the three words from hell, “Let's be friends,” I would actually be happy to do so because I want you in my life in any way you can offer.
So, you may ask, if I'm comfortable being just friends, why risk ruining it? Well, who really wants to just be comfortable? I mean, what if there's more? What if you share that feeling I get just from looking into your eyes when we talk? What if you're just not sure if I share it?
Well, I do.
This doesn't sound like me, I know. But, it's how I feel and I just needed to tell you.
I can remember feeling this way only once before and it didn't work out because I made the same mistake I'm making now. I followed that ideal with four years in college, pushing away any real chance at connections and commitments.
I feel that now, I'm ready for something real and I have you to thank. Please don't feel any pressure from this — that's not my intent. I just want you to know how special you could be to me.
I know that feelings aren't always mutual and that attraction is a tricky science. So, don't take pity on me. If you don't feel the same way, just say so; we can be friends. Having a smart, attractive and funny girl in my life is something I need, no matter the relationship's label.
Your smile, the way you hold your head, how you play with your hair and your very essence entrances me and takes me to a place where, for reasons unknown to me, I feel like it's all that I'll ever need.
I guess some people would call that love, but I don't want to go that far. All I know is that I like you honestly and innocently, and I want to know you more. Could this turn into love? I don't know. I guess that's why I'm writing you, to see how you feel.
I can say with absolute certainty, however, that I hope it goes in that direction.